The reverence, humility and feeling of Easter trump the excitement and hooplah of any other, in my book.
I spent the last week reading Matthew over again and learning as much as I could about crucifixion practice. It blew my mind, but crucifixion for most is only a suffering of a few hours. Gethsemane was the atonement for my sins, for my pains, for my sorrows.
Religiously, I am not the person I think my parents, friends, family, inlaws, etc. ever thought, expected, or wanted me to be. For me that is ok. I have spent the last three years on a journey of finding out who I am and where I fit into this big picture.
I do have a testimony of some very important things, however. I have come to know more than ever that Christ lives. God still does hear and listen to prayers and the deep desires of your heart, even if you feel or are made to feel unworthy of that. I know that God has carried me through so many trying times as of late, and I have truly felt his presence in my life.
I believe in a very compassionate and loving God and Savior. In any reading I've ever done, the humility and compassion that is shown to absolutely anyone is so inspiring. Men are not often compassionate. I believe that God truly does "looketh on the heart". He knows our true intentions, who we want to become, sees our potential and ultimately loves us unconditionally either way. I do want to be like my Savior in those ways. Not in any way ritualistic or that I'm unable to find in scripture, but I want to have a love for my family and fellow man like that. His example, peace, and sacrifice can be found everywhere and I am so very grateful for it. I have a peace and comfort in knowing that Christ will know how I loved my spouse and children, worked and labored for them, tried my best to serve, and hopefully lived an honorable life. I can only do my best and I have such a long way to go. Hopefully, I have a lot of years left!
I love Easter and it hold such a huge meaning and significance for me. Each year it seems to more and more.
Enough of my rant, now off to more packing and Cadbury Easter egg eating! Happy Easter to all, I hope everyone enjoys such a special and meaningful day, but also enjoys the fun and bliss with their close ones!
